Its the longest weekend leading to hos birthday.  Im jealous of every single one that can celebrate with you. It wrong to mind fuck myself because I do not know exactly who and what relationship you have with them. But for sure not plantonic…

Happy Birthday Dearie .
I know this year I will not have a chance to celebrate your Birthday. Im super jealous of every of your drinking kaki. They have the chance to hug you and drink with you. Nothing has changed for me. The only reason I wanted out is because I feel you focus not on me anymore. But nothings changed for me.
Nothing good will come out of us being in love but to love somebody and beeds to consider so much; how tiring is that?
Have a good one Darling.