I am a wimp….. I dare not say what I so proudly declared here yesterday. No guts…. His assurance did not pacify me enough to feel secure. His aloofness starts to make me feel redundant.
Today he suddently claimed that he is having a terrible headache… I offered to take leave and go with him to the doctor but was rejected. He told me not to think too much and that he has to attend the important appt in the afternoon.
Why do I feel so insecure?? It because he used to share alot with me. I do jot know when it started but he closes up on me. He told me that its because of work that he is swamped in…
But I always caught him and his xmm on whatsapp at the same time. Makes me wonder how true he really is to me…

But then I deserve it right? I knew from the start that this woups be the case of “trying something new” for him and he just need the “challenges” to keep him going… Why am I so bloody upset when he turns out to be exactly what I expected? I knew from the start that I would only be a spare tyre to him. I should remember that fairy tales do not exist……..

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