Rainy April

The weather suits my mood. Its been raining all through out . I have gd new and bad new(s). Yup. One good news thousand bad news… Too depressed to note it all here…
I just want to do my best. Never mind that nobody seems interested in helping me… But then it maybe pre natal depression….

 

Stress out

I had a conversation with the princess school principal a while ago. No ,not what you are thinking ,she did not hit anybody..yet..
She had another bruise within the span of 3weeks. I cannot take it. This time she got it close to the eyes.
Im so upset I actually had a meltdown with the principal.
I know im seriously stress out when I blog 3 posrs in a day and all within an hours time.. :X

 

Do my best…

I always feel that He is intentionally trying to test my patience. You may be the GOD in this little world you have created but that does not mean you can control me in the real world..

I do not want to care anymore…. I will do my best …at most I will just look for other alternatives.

 

Secret …..

It always make my heart ache to see the father and mother wearing the veil for the bride…

I only have a father in name… He did not wear the veil for me with my mother. He did not turn up for the tea ceremony as well. He does not regard me a daughter. I do not understand why do I feel upset about. I should be happy. One less burden to think about. But no , my life is as such that I am not able to distance myself away from him becos he is linked to my mother and my sister…

 

I feel like crying but whats the point crying over spilled milk right?

 

Stress #1 ….

Have I bitch written about this before? Suddently I do not feel so positive anymore! Why so many new rules? Why you are so biased?! Will she really make it to the top without your help? Well, please ask her to prove us wrong then!!

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Something is wrong with my life …seriously,how come its never ever normal with it?! Why cant I walk the regular road when I get married have kids and have a good job? Why do I need to go through all these shitty stuffs? Will I be like my mother? Suffer all her life and end up still cannot relax in her old age…
I refused to be like her!!!! No way in hell!!!

 

Running away???

There is so much nagative going on at the moment that I do not where to start… I need to sit down and analyse preferably with a good glass of white wine and any one of my two buddies to share my thoughts with…
I hope to do that quickly if not I may go insane soon….

 

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGG

IM SO ANGRY TODAY!! I TRY TO BE POSTIVE BUT I CANNOT!! IT DOES NOT HELP THAT THE PEOPLE IN THE OFFICE ARE SILLY ASSESS!!!! CANT YOU GUYS TELL THAT THE ONE WHO IS CREATING ALL THIS SHIT IS THE ONE WHO IS INTIATING ALL THOSE “POLICY” ??!?!?!?

STUPID CLIENT EXPECTS ME TO TAKE THE BLAME!! KNNNNNNN FUCKKKKKKK U ALL TO HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

SO DUMB ALL OF YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

I WISH I HAD TAKEN LEAVE TODAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

STOOPIC FOOL YOU!!

你将心比心的对待人家但人家当你狗肺！！！！

就算是你的枕边人又如何？还不是一样当你离说当然。。。又没有很多好处。。。

真的很失望。。。

 

3rd day of full day CC

My eyes filled with tears. She keep crying : I want marmi I wan marmi!!! She did not sleep well last nite. Slept past 12midnight n woke me up to tell me she do not want to attend school. Twice…  I hope that she get used to it soon!! Why are the teachers not doing something?!?!

 

2nd day of full day CC

So today is the 2nd day of full day for my baby… She came home and tells me she wants her own friends… I feel so sad… I keep doubting myself if what I am doing is wrong.. For the sake of my career I put her out of her comfort zone when she just adapt and being her element..  I feeling very guilty about it…