Stress #1 ….

Have I bitch written about this before? Suddently I do not feel so positive anymore! Why so many new rules? Why you are so biased?! Will she really make it to the top without your help? Well, please ask her to prove us wrong then!!

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Something is wrong with my life …seriously,how come its never ever normal with it?! Why cant I walk the regular road when I get married have kids and have a good job? Why do I need to go through all these shitty stuffs? Will I be like my mother? Suffer all her life and end up still cannot relax in her old age…
I refused to be like her!!!! No way in hell!!!

 

Running away???

There is so much nagative going on at the moment that I do not where to start… I need to sit down and analyse preferably with a good glass of white wine and any one of my two buddies to share my thoughts with…
I hope to do that quickly if not I may go insane soon….

 

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGG

IM SO ANGRY TODAY!! I TRY TO BE POSTIVE BUT I CANNOT!! IT DOES NOT HELP THAT THE PEOPLE IN THE OFFICE ARE SILLY ASSESS!!!! CANT YOU GUYS TELL THAT THE ONE WHO IS CREATING ALL THIS SHIT IS THE ONE WHO IS INTIATING ALL THOSE “POLICY” ??!?!?!?

STUPID CLIENT EXPECTS ME TO TAKE THE BLAME!! KNNNNNNN FUCKKKKKKK U ALL TO HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

SO DUMB ALL OF YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

I WISH I HAD TAKEN LEAVE TODAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

STOOPIC FOOL YOU!!

你将心比心的对待人家但人家当你狗肺！！！！

就算是你的枕边人又如何？还不是一样当你离说当然。。。又没有很多好处。。。

真的很失望。。。

 

3rd day of full day CC

My eyes filled with tears. She keep crying : I want marmi I wan marmi!!! She did not sleep well last nite. Slept past 12midnight n woke me up to tell me she do not want to attend school. Twice…  I hope that she get used to it soon!! Why are the teachers not doing something?!?!

 

2nd day of full day CC

So today is the 2nd day of full day for my baby… She came home and tells me she wants her own friends… I feel so sad… I keep doubting myself if what I am doing is wrong.. For the sake of my career I put her out of her comfort zone when she just adapt and being her element..  I feeling very guilty about it…

 

Its in your eyes…

She asked me on the way home if im very sad and I looked at her in surprised. How do you know? I asked  Its in your eyes…. She replied.

Yes . I admitted. I cannot get it out. No time n place for me to let it go…

 

Be contented….

Met up with missy ball yesterday for dinner.. We had two beers and seafood… Basically, we just catch up and stuff.. Bitched about the lastest happening in my life, the boss and the holy TL , he commented how unfair and shitty place I always seems to be working in…
Funny how he said that I could do much better. He said that the ah beng is the “cream of the corp” but my expectation is still pretty low when it comes to men…
I guess what he said ia true. But all I asked for is someone being faithful to me , I do not need lavish gifts or europe trips!
I guess bearing that in mind I need to work on my relationship even more with the ah beng…

 

Never rain but pours on my parade…

I can never have a peaceful day…why does it always have to be pouring heavily on my life? Do other people have such issues like me? I think this is the last straw… No matter what reasons the HOly mother gives I will not be satisfield . Its about the fairness of the business. As management how can you be so balently unfair?

It maybe becos of my personality… I can never act pity, bootlick or suck up to gain my way up the ladder.

Its okei, I shall not and will not waste my tears on such matters and people. Not worth my time.

 

Negativity

I have always pride myself as someone whom goes all the way in helping..even though I may not be in the best of the positions but I do the best I could. It really hurts me that she could used words to hurt people like that. If you duo not want to help  thats fine, say it and its all good for all the people staying under one roof! Do not try to makey life miserable!! I have not done anything to you. I did not insist that you take care of your grandchild
It is such a pity that you do not love your grandchild enough to willingly looked after her. I can only pity you. Somehow, I do not feel like we are a family if I have to pity you. That is not the correct energy to have in a family.