STOOPIC FOOL YOU!!

你将心比心的对待人家但人家当你狗肺！！！！

就算是你的枕边人又如何？还不是一样当你离说当然。。。又没有很多好处。。。

真的很失望。。。

 

3rd day of full day CC

My eyes filled with tears. She keep crying : I want marmi I wan marmi!!! She did not sleep well last nite. Slept past 12midnight n woke me up to tell me she do not want to attend school. Twice…  I hope that she get used to it soon!! Why are the teachers not doing something?!?!

 

2nd day of full day CC

So today is the 2nd day of full day for my baby… She came home and tells me she wants her own friends… I feel so sad… I keep doubting myself if what I am doing is wrong.. For the sake of my career I put her out of her comfort zone when she just adapt and being her element..  I feeling very guilty about it…

 

Its in your eyes…

She asked me on the way home if im very sad and I looked at her in surprised. How do you know? I asked  Its in your eyes…. She replied.

Yes . I admitted. I cannot get it out. No time n place for me to let it go…

 

Be contented….

Met up with missy ball yesterday for dinner.. We had two beers and seafood… Basically, we just catch up and stuff.. Bitched about the lastest happening in my life, the boss and the holy TL , he commented how unfair and shitty place I always seems to be working in…
Funny how he said that I could do much better. He said that the ah beng is the “cream of the corp” but my expectation is still pretty low when it comes to men…
I guess what he said ia true. But all I asked for is someone being faithful to me , I do not need lavish gifts or europe trips!
I guess bearing that in mind I need to work on my relationship even more with the ah beng…

 

Never rain but pours on my parade…

I can never have a peaceful day…why does it always have to be pouring heavily on my life? Do other people have such issues like me? I think this is the last straw… No matter what reasons the HOly mother gives I will not be satisfield . Its about the fairness of the business. As management how can you be so balently unfair?

It maybe becos of my personality… I can never act pity, bootlick or suck up to gain my way up the ladder.

Its okei, I shall not and will not waste my tears on such matters and people. Not worth my time.

 

Negativity

I have always pride myself as someone whom goes all the way in helping..even though I may not be in the best of the positions but I do the best I could. It really hurts me that she could used words to hurt people like that. If you duo not want to help  thats fine, say it and its all good for all the people staying under one roof! Do not try to makey life miserable!! I have not done anything to you. I did not insist that you take care of your grandchild
It is such a pity that you do not love your grandchild enough to willingly looked after her. I can only pity you. Somehow, I do not feel like we are a family if I have to pity you. That is not the correct energy to have in a family.

 

Holiday…..

Im off to resort balai seng on beo for 3d 4n stay!! I hope I have alot of fun…hope being the key word.

 

Mc does not mean anything in this house….

Im on mc. The doctor says that I have this stress illness that caused me to have keep having stomach pain. But who cares right? Even if I die…only my poor child loses out. But as the master says without mummy also never mind right. Fuck u!!

 

You never think for other people.

” try not to critise other ppl candidate when they sent to you for co~broke they may be afraid to send you then”
” dun say out loud with you negativity, other people may get influence”
And the coup de grace : ” you think of others”

What I am only guilty of is that I assumed that when the opportunity comes people will think for me instead. ASS U ME……